I Want More

I've been living this shell of a life,

Just holding on, along for the ride. 

Living in fear, so refusing to change,

Better to hide than risk feeling any pain.

Alone is safer than letting love in,

Stuck in a rut, scared to dream big.

But when good enough becomes as good as it gets,

The walls I put up start to close in.

There's safety in hiding and pushing away,

But life's so much more than living this way.

Is it worth it to stay safe but never really live?

What more could there be if I dared to dream big?

Trade numbness for feeling, both the good and the bad,

In order to be happy there's gonna be some sad.

Been stuck in this prison, time to open the door,

Come what may, I know I want more.

(Journal entry 3/10/14)