Easy--Rascal Flatts w/ Natasha Bedingfield

We broke up, yeah, it's tough

most guys would've been crushed

Wastin' their time

Wonderin' where they went wrong

No way, not me

Hey, I'm doing just fine

It's easy going out on a Friday night

I'm not afraid of movin' on

Easy every time I see her out

I can smile, live it up

The way a single guy does

But what she, what she don't know

Is how hard it is to make it look so easy

[Natasha Bedingfield]

The truth is, that I miss lyin' in those arms of his

But I don't ever let it show

I laugh and I act like

I'm having the time of my life

as far as he knows

It's easy goin' out on a Friday night

Easy, everytime I see him out

I can smile, live it up

The way a single girl does

But, what he, what he don't know

is how hard it is to make it look so easy

Brave--Sara Bareilles

You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up
Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do
And they settle ‘neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if you

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

Everybody’s been there, everybody’s been stared down
By the enemy
Fallen for the fear and done some disappearing
Bow down to the mighty
Don’t run, stop holding your tongue
Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

Innocence, your history of silence
Won’t do you any good
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

Let Go

Maybe, just maybe, its okay to let go...

Let go of the past, ghosts following me,

Filling my thoughts, haunting my dreams.

Let go of regrets, of guilt and of shame,

Reliving the sorrow, reliving the pain.

Let go of hurt, of fear and blame,

Secrets unspoken, judgments made.

If the past is the past, and the future's unwritten,

Maybe, just maybe, there's room for forgiveness.

This life we live in, it's broken and messy,

The road we walk, it's winding and bumpy.

But if there's beauty in imperfection, 

And its ok to just be me,

Then it's time to let go, time to be free.

(Journal entry 7/19/13)

So Sorry

I'm so sorry.

I've screwed up, I've messed up, let people down,

I'm so sorry.

I've lied to the world and I've lied to myself,

I'm so sorry.

I've sold my body and sold my soul,

I'm so sorry.

I'm dirty and ugly and unworthy of love,

I'm so sorry.

I keep falling and failing and wanna give up,

I'm so sorry.

I'll never be normal, never be okay,

I'm so sorry....

(Journal entry 7/13/13)

A Prayer for Recovery

Jesus,
You gave me this body, help me to respect it and honor it.
You gave me this life, help me to live it fully.
You gave me your body and blood, help me to appreciate spiritual and physical food.
You gave me unconditional love, help me to love myself and accept the love of others.
You gave your life on the cross, help me to place my suffering at the foot of the cross.
You gave forgiveness to all, help me to accept your forgiveness and forgive myself.
You gave me a purpose, help me to follow your will.
Amen.
 (Journal entry 6/1/13)

A New Serenity Prayer

God, grant me the serenity

to accept the people I cannot change,

which is pretty much everyone,

since I’m clearly not you, God.

At least not the last time I checked.

And while you’re at it, God,

please give me the courage

to change what I need to change about myself,

which is frankly a lot, since, once again,

I’m not you, which means I’m not perfect.

It’s better for me to focus on changing myself

than to worry about changing other people,

who, as you’ll no doubt remember me saying,

I can’t change anyway.

Finally, give me the wisdom to just shut up

whenever I think that I’m clearly smarter

than everyone else in the room,

that no one knows what they’re talking about except me,

or that I alone have all the answers.

Basically, God,

grant me the wisdom

to remember that I’m

not you.

Amen
- Fr James Martin

ED

I’m locked in this dungeon, cant break free,

Trapped in my head, with thoughts I hate...

Clawing, scratching, reaching trying to escape,

Emotions building inside me but hidden deep within...

A blank slate on the outside but turmoil underneath,

I’m someone I don’t want to be...

My self is lost, buried and pushed aside,

I locked it away and can't find the key...

(Journal entry June, 2012)