Something to believe in--Parachute

You wake up every morning looking for your answer,
You're waiting for your sign
While Jeremiah's on his way to tell the people
But you watch him pass you by
You walk the streets at night still looking for your reason

But you don't wanna try
You swear the world has got you backed into a corner,
But no one holds your hand to walk into a fight
You swear the light is gonna find you,
But it can't find you when you're waiting all the time

Chorus:
You say, "keep my head from going down just for a little, just for a little"
Watch my feet float off the ground just for a little, just for a little
Love, if you can hear this sound oh,
Just give me something, something to believe in

You spend your days alone still hopin' for the truth, oh
But all you hear are lies
But no on else is gonna tell you what to do now
No one else is gonna help you hold the line
Sometimes it's hard to keep on living
But you're the one who's got to know just when it's right

You say, "keep my head from going down just for a little, just for a little
Watch my feet float off the ground just for a little, just for a little
Love, if you can hear this sound oh,
Just give me something, something to believe in

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What are you waiting for? Are you waiting for someone to pick you up? Are you waiting for someone to take your hand and lead you along? Are you waiting for someone to do it for you? Stop waiting! Start living. Summon the inner strength you never knew you had and stand up again. Find your way. Make it happen. Complacency leads to failure... how much of human life is lost in waiting? Be the change you wish to see in the world. That's how change happens... one gesture, one person, one moment at a time.

Fix You--Coldplay

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below

When you're too in love to let it go

But if you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down on your face

And I...

Tears stream down on your face

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down on your face

And I...

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Perfect--Pink

Always rememember... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s4Rax2PXiWA

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'no way it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than, less then perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look how big you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred, such a tired game
It's enough! I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than, less then perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're perfect to me

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty please!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than, less then perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're perfect to me
You're perfect, you're perfect!
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're perfect to me.

Empowered

Is it ok to feel strong? Is it alright to feel empowered? Its so foreign after listening to other people for so long. I feel like I'm breaking out of a shell, ready to take on the world, ready to say 'what the hell' and just dive into life feet first. I feel wired, is this newfound strength like a drug? It's addictive, taking over my being. I'm worth something. I'm beautiful. I'm confident. I can take on the world.

(Journal entry 2/23/11)

More--Matthew West

Take a look at the mountain, Stretching a mile high
Take a look at the ocean, Far as your eye can see
And think of me

Take a look at the desert, Do you feel like a grain of sand?
I am with you wherever, Where you go is where I am
And I'm always thinking of you

Take a look around you, I'm spelling it out one by one

I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine and you shine for me too
I love you Yesterday And today And tomorrow
I'll say it again and again
I love you more

Just a face in the city, Just a tear on a crowded street
But you are one in a million, And you belong to me
And I want you to know, I'm not letting go
Even when you come undone

Shine for me, Shine for me
Shine on, shine on
Shine for me

And I see you, And I made you
And I love you more than you can imagine
More than you can fathom
I love you more than the sun
And you shine for me

Rely on God

Reliance. It's a word I grapple with so much... should I rely on myself? Rely on others? Well, how about neither? How about instead, rely on God? Relying only on yourself shuts you off from the love the rest of the world has to offer, and leaves you overwhelmed and alone. Relying on others is setting yourself up to be let down, for people will all, at some point, fail. Relying on God though, that's foolproof. He is always with us, so we are never alone. And he never fails, so we can fully lean on Him without having to worry that He will crumble. He wants us to lay all our burdens on Him... others will get tired of hearing your problems, but God never will. He will never let us down, even when we let Him down. So yes, we do need to let go and rely on others. But that "other" is God.

- Journal entry 4/9/11, Encounter retreat

Moving on

I'm moving on, letting go of the past and creating a new future.

I'm taking the mistakes from the past, learning and growing,

And then I'm throwing them away.

No longer will I be weighed down by doubts or regrets.

I'm tossing these away and feeling the relief of losing the burden.

I'm able to embrace the beauty of the world,

Embrace the beauty of the human community,

Embrace my own beauty.

It takes internal strength to choose to be happy,

To force down the feelings of helplessness and doubt

And replace them with hope and confidence.

But I'm moving on, looking forward, optimistic for the future.

- Journal entry 2/28/11