The Last

Before moving on...

You've gotta learn to stand on your own before you can stand beside someone else.
You've gotta learn to pick yourself up before you reach for someone's hand.
You've gotta learn to say no if you want your yes to have meaning.
You've gotta believe that you are beautiful without being told.
You've gotta have a whole heart before you can give it away.
You've gotta put your trust in God before you can trust another person.
You've got to stop looking before you will find what you are seeking.
You've gotta learn to love yourself before you fall for someone else.
(Journal entry 10/12/12)

Waiting

She's waiting for a word, waiting for a sign,

That she is worth something, worth somebody's time,

And she'll keep waiting, waiting.

She'll put on any mask, she'll play any role,

Just to be needed, she'll even sell her soul,

And she'll keep waiting, waiting.

Where can she turn, where can she go?

Desperate for love, for someone to hold,

But she'll keep waiting, waiting.

No one sees it, no one knows,

That she's just a shell, nobody's home.
And she'll keep waiting, waiting.

She's changed so many times, she's lost her sense of self,

Convinced if someone sees her, she will get it back,

But she's forever waiting, waiting...

(Journal entry 10/3/12)

Beautiful Disaster--Jon McLaughlin

She loves her momma's lemonade

Hates the sounds that goodbyes make
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her
She swears that there's no difference 

between the lies and compliments
It's all the same if everybody leaves her

And every magazine tells her she's not good enough

The pictures that she sees makes her cry

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's giving boys what they want
Tries to act so nonchalant
Afraid to see that she's lost her direction
She never stays the same for long
Assuming that she'll get it wrong
Perfect only in her imperfection

She's not a drama queen
She doesn't wanna feel this way
Only 17 and tired, yeah

She would change everything for happy ever after
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's just the way she is
But no one's told her that's OK

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster

She would change everything for happy ever after
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home